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2011 Reflection

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Year 2011 was educational & massively interesting. Its been a year since I lost the one thing that I never knew I would miss so much until it was taken away from me. I gave myself a year to mourn that lost. In this one year, I have gone out to do the things that I don't usually do. Take leaps. Like walking on water or bathing a fish. lolz. Well, the year has finally come to an end, and I pushed my heart almost off a cliff & damaged my body more than enough, all in the hopes that it would ease the pain and let the guilt subside. As it would turn out, pain never really goes away, and guilt can never fully subside.

2011 has been a little kind to me as well ~ I've made new friends, and some of that friendship blossomed into something special. I've met friends who have definitely created footprints in my heart, for the things I've learnt about myself and life in general would not have been the same without them. Sometimes, the most unexpected people walk into your life, and they become ones that you never want to live without.

And friends that were always there before have moved onto a deeper level of intimacy, closer than ever. Of course there were squabbles and "let's talk/hack it out" conversations, but those are what made friendship flourish. 

Every year new memories are created, some are created for us, and some we create for ourselves. I learnt that if you don't take a moment & turn it memorable, that moment remains ordinary. 

Some invisible lines are okay to cross, and once you do, that heart thumping, blood rushing sensation that it gives you would tell you that crossing that line was worth it after all.

Know that holding back would not give you the satisfaction that you crave for. Kiss on impulse, Slap someone just cos you want to, laugh till everybody in the room is staring at you, scream when a cockroach lands on your shoulder (fregggin scary stuff... brrr), jump up & down on your bed holding a stolen mic singing "Wanna Be" by Spice girls, dye your hair pink (hmm, I think I did that last year..), do a surprise Ramly burger delivery at 3am on a weekday to your best friend in your pyjamas. Just don't hold back too much on the fun stuff and you'll be smiling just a lil more often than you usually do!   

Word of advise ~ after torturing yourself by drowning in alcohol, in addition to the pounding in your head, the same problems are there to slap you in the face in the morning. Face your problems head on and never deny pain when pain is what you are feeling. Sometimes we have to work through the pain, not smile or party through it.

Take note: Guys who open doors, pull out chairs, deliver food to you when you are sick, or Vitagen to your doorstep just cos they want to and lend you their warm arm in the cinema still exists *smiles*

Something I endure every year, people WILL talk about you, its quite inevitable unless you are a loner living on a farm with only a bunch of sheep (and even THAT, you are unsure if the sheep are gossiping amongst themselves, and YOU are the topic of conversation). Some topics you hear and go... "Whhaaattt?! I didn't know I had a third eye" *rollseyes* and some topics you hear and quietly think "Dammit, I deserve that." Whichever it is, you move on. 

Overall, 2011 has tipped its scale more to "AWESOME" for me. The timeline given to myself to be partly bitter & jaded about love & life has finally come to end ~ which marks a new beginning. 

Let's raise our glass to the coming year. Welcome 2012!!! *Cheers!*

Random Bubble, Goodbye 2011.

Music died and so did I by JK Sammy

My dear baby sister wrote this a couple of years back. I just thought to fill the contents of my blog, I'd share :) Enjoy!
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They say that music heals your soul,
But my trembling hands laid motionless on this rusty old piano. 
My cold feet remained unsteady on the una corde pedal.
I stared blankly at deformed sheets that held my past affection.
The beauty of Clair de Lune couldn’t register.
I sat frozen on the obselete piano bench; with silent tears as I felt Debussy slip away.
I took a lungful of air as I flipped through the pages; and a great pang of pain hit me, 
The Sonata di chiesa just didn’t make sense anymore.
Bach; the Urvater der Harmonie died within me.
The baroque era vanished from my heart. 
I tried, god how I tried.
I struggled to absorb the vague familiar notes at my fingertips,
to recollect the touch of this vintage instrument. 
But still, reminisce of a pianoforte I once loved didn’t recuperate, 
the symphony doesn’t assimilate.
No melody in my head.
No harmony in my body.
There was no rhythm in me. 
Gone were my musical laughter.
All I felt was dust and emptiness.
Music was my passion,
Music was my obsession,
Music; was me.
And now, here I stood broken; 
Plunging into it like a bottle of brandy 
Even so, it remains foreign.
Suddenly crystals washed over and it struck me, 
Music cannot cure whatever’s beyond repair. 
Music cannot heal you, if you’re already dead within.
Nothing can.

New Year's Eve (2011)

Almost similar to the movie Valentine's Day released in 2010, directed also by Gary Marshall is "New Year's Eve"!!

Whilst Valentine's day was about how the lives of city dwellers were intertwined somehow by love. Add to that the pressure of Valentine's day that drives the love bells ringing to a higher notch; New Year's Eve promises a similar 'intertwine-ment'!! *smiles*

Some of my favourite celebrities are starring in this movie; Sarah Jessica Parker, Ashton Kutcher, Sofia Vergara (absolutely love her character in 'Modern Family'), Jon Bon Jovi, Katherine Heigl, Josh Duhamel (who is the only reason I watch the series 'Las Vegas' lolz), Robert De Niro.


Can't wait for this one to be released!!
Here is the movie trailer.

 

Yes, I am a sucker for romantic comedies. lolz. 

Best Friend - Jason Chen (Official Music Video)

Another great tune from Jason Chen.
Love this song!! Thank you Cynthia Chew for introducing it to me ♥
Paper Planes ♥ *wink*

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Some friends and I were at T.G.I.F @ One Utama the other night discussing about our up coming "Let's Welcome 2012" trip. Once the discussion was over, the laptop was put into overtime use by entertaining us all. A friend showed us pictures of noses.... YES, NOSE. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles nose to be precise! amazing how the human nose can easily be turned into a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles nose. lolz. Cos I love the character Chuck Bass so much, the example I'm gonna show you is....

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To view more noses, you could check out these links (:

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Just thought I'd try it out (: 

Lolz.